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Nothing bothers you, except the words of a certain few. I am feeling so immature and out of the loop. I know for sure I am in one of my more selfish periods of my life. If someone infringes on my own personal stuff, and space I am so weird and snippy. I know for a fact that I could not deal with kissing a girl on her mouth, and thinking of her, and watching out for her. For one, the whole kissing thing seems kinda weird to me. For two, the amount of committment around me is making me feel strange, in a way I haven't felt before. In the past, I have been pro relationships and loving one another and intimacy and all those wonderful thing that I like to think, talk, and write about, but right now it seems destructive. Right now, I know it would destroy me. Right now, it would put me in the same place I was four years ago: begging and crying in a parking lot in the pouring rain, in only boxers and a t shirt in december. You meet some people who influence you so quickly. You meet some people who give you wonderful feelings the first or second time you meet them. I have met a couple of these people in just the last week. Parents are coming, must recommend a hotel. They will be here for 1 1/2 days. So much better than nothing. The whole family is going on a cruise in January. I think the cruise is run by Disney. I get to see two little squabs running around, two little nephews, and maybe I can play a video game with Harlan. |